Di dalam Al-Qur’an tidak diterangkan pada malam ke berapa malam Lailatul Qodar itu jatuh, tetapi di dalam hadits diterangkan bahwa sesungguhnya Rasulullah shallallahu alaihi wa sallam beri’tikaf pada 10 hari awal di bulan Ramadhan menginginkan malam Lailatul Qodar, kemudian beliau beri’tikaf pada 10 hari pertengahannya dan mengatakan (yang artinya): “Sesungguhnya malam Lailatul Qodar itu jatuh pada 10 hari akhir di bulan Ramadhan”. Beliau melihatnya dan beliau sujud di waktu shubuh di tempat yang berair bercampur tanah, kemudian pada malam ke-21 di saat beliau i’tikaf, turunlah hujan maka mengalirlah air hujan tersebut pada atap masjid karena masjid Nabi shallallahu alaihi wa sallam terbuat dari anjang-anjang. Beliau menjalankan sholat subuh bersama para sahabatnya kemudian beliau sujud. Anas bin Malik berkata: ‘Aku melihat bekas air dan tanah dikeningnya, maka beliau sujud ditempat yang berair bercampur tanah.” - (HR. Bukhori no.669 dan 2016, Muslim no.1167, dan 216 dari shohabat Abu Sa’id Al-Khudri).
Sekarang adalah malam kesepuluh malam yang menjelmanya Lailatul Qadar pada tarikh-tarikh ganjil. Aku sentiasa menantikan malam ini kerana ia malam yang sempurna untuk segala-galanya.. Tapi sayang yer malam kesepuluh terakhir ni pula ada penyakit cedera parah pulak...( u know what i mean la!huhu). Tapi walau apa pun terjadi aku akan cuba mendapatkan malam-malam yang istimewa ni.
Kalo tak silap aku, aku ada mengalami malam lailatul qadar ni. Masa tuh tak silap umur 13thn.. That nite was peaceful, quite and the moon shine very clearly. Pada mlm tuh lepas sembahyang terawih seperti biasala naik basikal gan kawan aku akmar. Tiap malam memang rutin kami akan pergi sembahyang terawih(tak penah tinggal tau!). Sepanjang jalan kelihatan pokok melambai-lambai lembut seperti ditiup angin. Tapi masalahnya malam tuh takde plak terasa angin. Ermm... that time tak terpikir la pulak apa-apa. Malam tu kami tak terus balik ke rumah. Sempat lagi nak round2 taman jap. Selalu kami tak macam tuh. Selalunya abis jer sembahyang terawih terus jer balik rumah.
Nak dijadikan cerita malam tuh, kami jalan sambil sembang2. Tiba2 seakan satu angin berembus laju kearah kami. Tergamam jugak la. Tapi kitaorg tak terpikir la plak ada hantu ker apa. Yelah bulan ramadhan semua setan kan dah kena rantai so kami pun buat tak tau la... Kami pun terus la mengayuh basikal tanpa hiraukan pasal angin tadi tuh. Sekali lagi kami terasa angin tuh balik. Dan kami merasakan sesuatu sedang mengekori kami. Bila dah rasa macam tuh, lagi cepatla kami mengayuh basikal.
Masa itu hala tujuan langsung takde.. So merata-ratala kami org duk kayuh basikal tuh. Lama kelamaan rasa macam sesuatu yang mengikut kami tuh dah takde.. Apa lagi bising la mulut kami berdua menanyakan apa kebendanya tuh! Tak sampai 10minit, tertiba terasa ada sesuatu kejar kami balik. Apa lagi lintang pukang la kami megayuh basikal dengan lajunya.. Terus menghala ke rumah aku... Bila sampai jer aku tgk belakang macam takde apa yang kejar kami plak..Ermm... tang situ yang amat memelikkan kami. Lantak la...Asalkan kami selamat sampai kat umah. Beberapa minit kemudian mak aku kuar. Dia pun pelik la napa kami termengah mengah. Aku pun apa lagi cite poyo aku pun kuar la.. Last2 mak aku sound, org mlm yang kesepuluh ni byk kan buat beribadat sbb salah satu harinya mungkin malam lailatul qadar. Ni tak, bole plak sempat nak gi round2 satu taman malam2 buta ni. Mana la benda2 pelik tak mengikut.
Laaaa..... Malam Lailatul Qadar rupanya.. Aku pun bole plak nak terlupa. Kalo la aku tau, bole la doa byk2 untuk malam sepuluh terakhir ramadhan tuh.. Tapi biasa la, manusia kan.. Mana la tak lari dr membuat silap. huhu...
Walaubagaimana pun aku tetap akan nantikan malam istimewa tu. Sampai sekarang dan sampai bila2 pun.. Tentu macam2 doa kan kita pinta pada mlm tuh? aku pun tak terkecuali daripada itu. Aku tak pernah putus2 mintak pada Allah memberikan kebahagiaan hidup bersama insan yang kucintai didunia dan akhirat, memuliakan hati aku dan semoga aku mulia disisiNya. Amin....
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Thursday, September 18, 2008
SEPI By Kabir Bhatia
To have watched and enjoyed CINTA years back, also directed by this supertalented Kabir Bhatia, and i had watched it before. And...???? It wasn't as good as CINTA, but for all it is worth, SEPI is far far better. This heart-felt romantic film depicts three different stories of love and loneliness, in which later are brought together in a life-changing incident. I personally cant stop admiring the brilliant cinematography, beautiful script, the scenic sets, also the superb casts. Believe it or not, I had tears over the hilarious Afdlin Shauki, who has proven that he is just as funny even without any single props in hand. As for Pierre Andre, I had always labeled him as just another actor. But in SEPI, I have to admit, he's a real talent and I simply love his character, very convincing. Tony Eusoff, the ever famous TV commercials hunk, who would have thought that he could sway the viewers far better than his persuasive acts in commercials. And Baizura Kahar, a potential talent in the making. I somehow just hate the wig though. And Vanida Imran, being one of the greatest, to find her savouring and loving every word of her lines, she's excellent. By the way, she's also gorgeous in SEPI, especially when wearing the Camelia flower in her hair. I now wonder how Camelia smells... Nasha Aziz, FUNNY, HILARIOUS !!! What a character!!! Splendid acts. Eja, however, I think she plays the same Eja as in her other movies, barely distinguishable.
Overall, what I love most about SEPI is the fact that viewers are not crowded with unnecessary details like most Malay films do. The plot is rather simple but focused and emotionally compact, truly effective. SEPI is undeniably outstanding and has taken a different lead to where our Malay films should be going. A great Malay movie which is hard to come by nowadays, and I reckon that u go and watch it for yourself.
PS - I later recognized the different SEPI (loneliness) interpreted in our lives...mine to say the least.
Thoughts To The Blinded
These days, it’s all about passion.
It’s about drive, and inspiration, and I maybe even hope. But most of all it’s about the new and the unsure and the going beyond my "safety zone". The letting go of the past but surely not its forgetting. Because there are always always lessons to be learned (and as much as possible never repeated).
Sitting and talking on that bench that sunny afternoon, I realized, it’s all over. Just like that. Thank you. No more. It’s one of those moments you imagined to more dramatic and more black and white like. I’m done done done with drama. It’s so liberating.
I realized that there are just some things you just cannot change. Like that everyday shuttling from home to work or the flickering of the computer screen or the food you eat at the cafeteria. But there ARE (after all) things that make the day something. For me, it’s meeting up with old friends or hanging out at the neighborhood coffee shop, or simply reading a good book. I have only recently discovered that passion does start with a spark and eventually illuminates life. I have also only so recently found passion in the mundane yet extraordinary. And I thank God so much for those moments. I am beginning to find something to smile about, to laugh about, to look forward to. It’s like doing things for the first time. Think about this: When was the last time you did something for the first time?
We’ve become so jaded (as Aerosmith’s song goes) that we forget the giddiness and the natural high that comes with doing something we love. I know A LOT of people share my sentiments. That routine is simply crazy. I hear you. Find something, anything that makes you feel brand new ( was that lame or was that lame?hehehe).But that’s so true no matter how boy band-ish it may sound!
And for those who forget how it is to have teeny-weeny spark in you, get in touch with an old friend, read your old diary, or listen to your favorite song. And maybe then you’ll remember how it felt like (and perhaps do something about it?) Good luck!
Don’t be blinded.
It’s about drive, and inspiration, and I maybe even hope. But most of all it’s about the new and the unsure and the going beyond my "safety zone". The letting go of the past but surely not its forgetting. Because there are always always lessons to be learned (and as much as possible never repeated).
Sitting and talking on that bench that sunny afternoon, I realized, it’s all over. Just like that. Thank you. No more. It’s one of those moments you imagined to more dramatic and more black and white like. I’m done done done with drama. It’s so liberating.
I realized that there are just some things you just cannot change. Like that everyday shuttling from home to work or the flickering of the computer screen or the food you eat at the cafeteria. But there ARE (after all) things that make the day something. For me, it’s meeting up with old friends or hanging out at the neighborhood coffee shop, or simply reading a good book. I have only recently discovered that passion does start with a spark and eventually illuminates life. I have also only so recently found passion in the mundane yet extraordinary. And I thank God so much for those moments. I am beginning to find something to smile about, to laugh about, to look forward to. It’s like doing things for the first time. Think about this: When was the last time you did something for the first time?
We’ve become so jaded (as Aerosmith’s song goes) that we forget the giddiness and the natural high that comes with doing something we love. I know A LOT of people share my sentiments. That routine is simply crazy. I hear you. Find something, anything that makes you feel brand new ( was that lame or was that lame?hehehe).But that’s so true no matter how boy band-ish it may sound!
And for those who forget how it is to have teeny-weeny spark in you, get in touch with an old friend, read your old diary, or listen to your favorite song. And maybe then you’ll remember how it felt like (and perhaps do something about it?) Good luck!
Don’t be blinded.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Takdir Cinta - Rossa
Ayat Ayat Cinta is a beautifully portrayed Islamic love story – a tale of a virtuous Muslim protagonist who overcomes all obstacles of life maintaining pure ideals.
Takdir Cinta is one of the song in Ayat-Ayat Cinta. Actually i never watch this movie yet. But i heard this movie is not bet.
Here im not talking about this movie, but what im most interested is about the song-Takdir Cinta. The lyrics is very melancholic(act my bf always used this word-pinjam jap eh my darling..hehehe). What i mean is melancholic verse Indonesia la. This song about women really admire to someone and she falling in love. She knows that guy can give his love to her yang selama ini sang gadis ni cari-cari.. Finally she got! But...there something,cinta 3segi la..
Ermm... For me, i dont care about the cinta 3segi or whatever and bla bla bla.. What i care about is the agung yer cinta sang gadis pada lelaki tuh.. So sweet izit bila kita tau someone really2 love us?? Zaman sekarang ni mana ada lagi org nak cinta2 sakan.. At the 1st sight might be.. Tapi lama2 dah takde dah. Everything about love become a responsibility. Betul tak?? Maybe out there will agree with me or maybe not at all. Kalau setakat cinta ala2 kadar just nak kahwin jer i dun think so u will live happy ever after. If u really ikhlas, really jujur, really sayang, really love and u can except your partner as well, that the kata kunci sebuah relationship la. huhu...
I know,
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Cracked Brain
These past few weeks was hectic. im not talking about my life or daily activities. but my mind. i just cant stop thinking about that 'thing'. it seems like i cant get it out of my mind. even when im asleep,i still dream the same thing. i hate this feeling. last nite, aku lepaskan semua nya. semua yang terpendam dlm hati aku. and at last, i cried. tp aku still hold back. so aku still tak relief sgt. this morning, aku baca blog someone, and again i cried. walaupon takde kena mgena ngan aku. the blog is about a person hv an appoinment and waited for almost 6 hours to end up that his client didnt show at all. while his wife, not having her dinner yet coz nak tggu husband balik watch tv alone which her husband promised her that they will watch the show together. tp semua tak menjadik. that's what happen when aku rasa broken. sensitif merata2, tak tentu pasal.
aku penat, pnat nak fikir benda ni semua. tp aku tak bole nak buang. org dah byk kali ckp ngan aku, nothing to fear, everything will be allrite. but somehow, aku takleh nak fikir camtu. what had happend in the past just affect me badly. hah.. how am i going to say this. ok.. i admit, im not as strong as what ppl see and expected. deep in my heart, there's something that makes me feel intimidate. that feeling suckkksssss.
aku penat, pnat nak fikir benda ni semua. tp aku tak bole nak buang. org dah byk kali ckp ngan aku, nothing to fear, everything will be allrite. but somehow, aku takleh nak fikir camtu. what had happend in the past just affect me badly. hah.. how am i going to say this. ok.. i admit, im not as strong as what ppl see and expected. deep in my heart, there's something that makes me feel intimidate. that feeling suckkksssss.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Cinta vs Sepi vs Takdir
Masih adakah perkataan sepi bagi hati yang telah ditakluki?? Atau sepi sebuah hati yang mengharapkan sebuah jawapan yang pasti untuknya....
Cinta umpama sebuah fantasi yang membuat kita semua leka melayarinya. Tapi kadang-kadang ianya memberi sebuah luka yang tanpa berdarah namun perit untuk kita menelannya. Yang pasti ianya takkan hilang dari hati yang amat memerlukan cinta. Amat susah untuk menemui cinta yang sejati yang kekal abadi. Adakalanya kita sudah menemuinya tapi belum tentu akan dapat memilikinya. Seribu cinta palsu yang bisa kita ketemui ada dimana-mana. Bakal itulah yang menjadikan kita hamba cinta yang tidak serik-serik bermain dengan cinta.
Sepi sentiasa meyelubungi kala cinta hilang dihati. Sepi adakalanya membuat kita seakan jadi gila untuk memiliki cinta. Sepi yang menguasai diri tidak dapat menghapuskan keresahan di hati. Diri sentiasa di himpit rindu bagi yang amat mendambakan cinta.
Tapi adilkah jika cinta itu dipermainkan?? Tanpa belas kasihan yang selama ini dikorbankan untuk kebahagian. Kebahagiaan sentiasa di harapkan oleh semua insan. Tapi sayangnya belum pasti akan dapat merasainya.
Kenapa mesti ada yang sanggup mempermainkan cinta pada mereka yang betul-betul mencintainya?? Murahkah cinta hingga sanggup mempermainkan dengan kata-kata? Tidakkah terdetik dihati atau sedari cinta yang diberi itu adalah cinta sejati hingga sangup korban dan lakukan segalanya?
Demikian la nasib bagi yang menghargai cinta.... Mengharapkan cinta dan mendambakan cinta... Selalu mereka akan menyalahkan takdir.. Tp adilkah? Ya mmg takdir tidak bole diubah tp nasib bole diubah.. Allah itu maha esa. Dia akan mengubah takdir dalam sekelip mata sahaja. Jadi jangan la terlalu bergantung pada takdir sahaja jikalau diri kita sendiri pun tidak pasti apa yang kita hendak dan hidup dalam dunia ini......
Cinta umpama sebuah fantasi yang membuat kita semua leka melayarinya. Tapi kadang-kadang ianya memberi sebuah luka yang tanpa berdarah namun perit untuk kita menelannya. Yang pasti ianya takkan hilang dari hati yang amat memerlukan cinta. Amat susah untuk menemui cinta yang sejati yang kekal abadi. Adakalanya kita sudah menemuinya tapi belum tentu akan dapat memilikinya. Seribu cinta palsu yang bisa kita ketemui ada dimana-mana. Bakal itulah yang menjadikan kita hamba cinta yang tidak serik-serik bermain dengan cinta.
Sepi sentiasa meyelubungi kala cinta hilang dihati. Sepi adakalanya membuat kita seakan jadi gila untuk memiliki cinta. Sepi yang menguasai diri tidak dapat menghapuskan keresahan di hati. Diri sentiasa di himpit rindu bagi yang amat mendambakan cinta.
Tapi adilkah jika cinta itu dipermainkan?? Tanpa belas kasihan yang selama ini dikorbankan untuk kebahagian. Kebahagiaan sentiasa di harapkan oleh semua insan. Tapi sayangnya belum pasti akan dapat merasainya.
Kenapa mesti ada yang sanggup mempermainkan cinta pada mereka yang betul-betul mencintainya?? Murahkah cinta hingga sanggup mempermainkan dengan kata-kata? Tidakkah terdetik dihati atau sedari cinta yang diberi itu adalah cinta sejati hingga sangup korban dan lakukan segalanya?
Demikian la nasib bagi yang menghargai cinta.... Mengharapkan cinta dan mendambakan cinta... Selalu mereka akan menyalahkan takdir.. Tp adilkah? Ya mmg takdir tidak bole diubah tp nasib bole diubah.. Allah itu maha esa. Dia akan mengubah takdir dalam sekelip mata sahaja. Jadi jangan la terlalu bergantung pada takdir sahaja jikalau diri kita sendiri pun tidak pasti apa yang kita hendak dan hidup dalam dunia ini......
Saturday, September 13, 2008
You'll never walk alone.
Believe it? Or might be you have one good reason to denied it..
Actually, I've a good reason to believe it. It's actually Liverpool theme, the football club (actually my fav is MU) hehe. You'll never walk alone. One reason to believe is because on the battle, you'll be with your friend, your team mate, not on your own, gaining everybody strength, to kick and bring the ball to the point (I mean goal post) and gaining victory. Haha. The joy and the fun together must be the sweetest memory to remember on.
But, sometime my heart showed that I'm denying it. Might be this is the middle age symptom, you'll felt that like you're alone with no body take care of you (or might be I keep on denying that I'm all alone. Haha) and you're left all alone at the end of the room, crying and feeling down only by yourself, like I always do. Totally, I don't think that anyone is care about am I having enough food to survive, money to buy this and that.. or what so ever, right?
Everyday I wish that I've a good husband. To be my friend to talk, to understand and to be with me when I'm in a hard situation. Might be you never can understand the feeling of being alone, without mom and dad to be on your side. I miss my mom and dad. To be with them at this moment is my ever wish. Yeah, I've to accept that my life is pathetic. I'm still my mom and dad little girl whom still depending on them, still wanna their care and love. I wish that I never made this choice to work and be apart from them. But, past is past, yesterday is yesterday. What ever happen yesterday is a process of learning to be matured this day and for a better tomorrow.
Mom and dad, I miss you so much.
Everyday i asked my mum pray for my happiness. Believe it or not, i still my mum little girl who always wanna be with my mum what ever happen.....
Actually, I've a good reason to believe it. It's actually Liverpool theme, the football club (actually my fav is MU) hehe. You'll never walk alone. One reason to believe is because on the battle, you'll be with your friend, your team mate, not on your own, gaining everybody strength, to kick and bring the ball to the point (I mean goal post) and gaining victory. Haha. The joy and the fun together must be the sweetest memory to remember on.
But, sometime my heart showed that I'm denying it. Might be this is the middle age symptom, you'll felt that like you're alone with no body take care of you (or might be I keep on denying that I'm all alone. Haha) and you're left all alone at the end of the room, crying and feeling down only by yourself, like I always do. Totally, I don't think that anyone is care about am I having enough food to survive, money to buy this and that.. or what so ever, right?
Everyday I wish that I've a good husband. To be my friend to talk, to understand and to be with me when I'm in a hard situation. Might be you never can understand the feeling of being alone, without mom and dad to be on your side. I miss my mom and dad. To be with them at this moment is my ever wish. Yeah, I've to accept that my life is pathetic. I'm still my mom and dad little girl whom still depending on them, still wanna their care and love. I wish that I never made this choice to work and be apart from them. But, past is past, yesterday is yesterday. What ever happen yesterday is a process of learning to be matured this day and for a better tomorrow.
Mom and dad, I miss you so much.
Everyday i asked my mum pray for my happiness. Believe it or not, i still my mum little girl who always wanna be with my mum what ever happen.....
Friday, September 12, 2008
When your friend sunddely said 'I know what ur feeling'....
While im sitting busy with my laptop,suddenly my friend said, 'nok barula skg i rasa apa yang kau rasa'... im quite shock but i just relax without making any face expression. He is my close friend and also my officemate. He is gay. hahaha... But i love him and making friend with him.. Well don't ever jugde them coz they also human like us.. :)
He got a new boyfriend and i already meet him. Well no bad i guess! And i see both of them are in love.. Why make my friend said like that to me...? ermmm.. well his boyfriend not only love him but he got another person in his heart! hehehe.... well, my friend is the second one lah! Hard to be second person.
My friend told me that his BF is to jelousy toward on him. But my friend cannot be jelousy with the 1st one.. So how??? Its that fair?? ermmm... Sometime when we love our partner so much, we didn't care about our feelings.. Yess!! i know its feel like u heart be cut with the knife! But what can we do?? Love cannot say anything without sacrified. What can i say... i just can gave the best and nothing for me to do.
There nothing that can we do.. Just a little patient and praying to god for our happiness.. Coz when we love someone so much we will do anything for him/her. That we call THE POWER OF LOVE.
He got a new boyfriend and i already meet him. Well no bad i guess! And i see both of them are in love.. Why make my friend said like that to me...? ermmm.. well his boyfriend not only love him but he got another person in his heart! hehehe.... well, my friend is the second one lah! Hard to be second person.
My friend told me that his BF is to jelousy toward on him. But my friend cannot be jelousy with the 1st one.. So how??? Its that fair?? ermmm... Sometime when we love our partner so much, we didn't care about our feelings.. Yess!! i know its feel like u heart be cut with the knife! But what can we do?? Love cannot say anything without sacrified. What can i say... i just can gave the best and nothing for me to do.
There nothing that can we do.. Just a little patient and praying to god for our happiness.. Coz when we love someone so much we will do anything for him/her. That we call THE POWER OF LOVE.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Sadness Day
Things will going crazy if we still thinking how to solve it. I really don't know why I'm today feel like very sad n down. Suddenly i been thinking of my mum n my brothers. Damn! I miss them so much!
Actually I cannot lie to myself. 'He' that always in my mind. I really afraid that i will lose him. OMG! I really fall in love with him. He the one who can make me stand in the air, feel like im an angel for him, make me so happy.
But how for me to get him???
Sitting alone on my sofa infront the television...Watching something that i really don't know what im watching. Huh...! My mind still with him again... Still hoping that he will be mine. But that is imposible it is?
Actually I cannot lie to myself. 'He' that always in my mind. I really afraid that i will lose him. OMG! I really fall in love with him. He the one who can make me stand in the air, feel like im an angel for him, make me so happy.
But how for me to get him???
Sitting alone on my sofa infront the television...Watching something that i really don't know what im watching. Huh...! My mind still with him again... Still hoping that he will be mine. But that is imposible it is?
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Welcome To shida
Welcome to myself for this blogging..huhu..What the 1st time im writing here telling my story..Well i hope after this i can share my story who interesting to read it... Enjoy!! Cheerssss.....
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