These past few weeks was hectic. im not talking about my life or daily activities. but my mind. i just cant stop thinking about that 'thing'. it seems like i cant get it out of my mind. even when im asleep,i still dream the same thing. i hate this feeling. last nite, aku lepaskan semua nya. semua yang terpendam dlm hati aku. and at last, i cried. tp aku still hold back. so aku still tak relief sgt. this morning, aku baca blog someone, and again i cried. walaupon takde kena mgena ngan aku. the blog is about a person hv an appoinment and waited for almost 6 hours to end up that his client didnt show at all. while his wife, not having her dinner yet coz nak tggu husband balik watch tv alone which her husband promised her that they will watch the show together. tp semua tak menjadik. that's what happen when aku rasa broken. sensitif merata2, tak tentu pasal.
aku penat, pnat nak fikir benda ni semua. tp aku tak bole nak buang. org dah byk kali ckp ngan aku, nothing to fear, everything will be allrite. but somehow, aku takleh nak fikir camtu. what had happend in the past just affect me badly. hah.. how am i going to say this. ok.. i admit, im not as strong as what ppl see and expected. deep in my heart, there's something that makes me feel intimidate. that feeling suckkksssss.
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